I've been feeling really stupid lately. I think it's because I'm coming to the end of my college career, and I'm realizing that I don't know half as much about things as I wish I did. For instance, I don't know anything about politics. Ask me about anyone in a government leadership position (aside from the President and VP), and I wouldn't be able to tell you their name to save my life. I didn't know where Fenway Park was until last week. I don't know anything about fashion. I can't cook anything that involves more than 4 steps of preparation. The only thing I really know is theatre with a little bit of music and media thrown in. Granted, that's my major, so it makes sense...but I wish I knew more about other things.
The most frustrating thing is that when I do finally feel like I know a good amount about something, someone comes along and shows me that I really don't know much at all.
I know it's all just a general feeling of inadequacy. I keep looking at all these grad schools I'm interested in, and they only accept a handful of people...and I just can't see myself being fortunate enough to be one of those people. I don't have amazing skills or outstanding experience. Will they even be interested in my application? And I say the dumbest things when I'm put on the spot, so even if they do ask me to come for an interview, I'll probably botch the thing by saying something ridiculous.
But I have to push these things behind me by remembering that I am enough in God's eyes. "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." I can do none of this on my own. I only need to know that he is with me, and that I have everything I need in him.
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